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Can you feel it coming?

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Something's waking up inside.

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Hearts ablaze, we're standing
tall breaking chains of yesterday.

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Dead America finds it's voice,
in the darkness, we make choice.

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Truth and healing lead

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the way, hearts ablaze,
we're here to stay.

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Rise from ashes, come what may,
we're finding hope in disarray.

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Today, we're speaking
with Michelle Steiner.

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She is a paraeducator, she has a
bachelor's in community programming,

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and her website, michellesmission.com.

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Michelle, could you please introduce
yourself and let people know a

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little more about you, please?

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Sure, I'd be happy to.

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Uh, as you said, my name
is Michelle Steiner.

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I live in Pennsylvania with my husband
Ron, and our two cats, Jack and Sparrow.

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I am a writer, a speaker, a photographer,
and a paraeducator, and I also

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have a learning disability as well.

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So let's start with
paraeducator for people.

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Some people might not understand
what we're talking about there.

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Could you please identify what
that means for the people?

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Sure.

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A paraeducator is a teacher's aide.

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So what I do is I work in the classroom
to help students that are struggling,

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I also help to assist the teacher.

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Sometimes it's crowd control.

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I always love to say that with my,
my disability, I can help the kids

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with anything except for math.

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And they all will find that out
very, um, shortly or they, yep.

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Well, I'm the same way.

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I, I don't like math much myself.

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Uh, a lot of people are like that, you
know, you really need that mindset for it.

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So, as you were growing up, a
lot of individuals told you you

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can't do what you've achieved.

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I, I, myself, have been told
that a lot in my life, and it

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stunted my growth in many ways.

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How did that affect you, Michelle?

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It was really difficult for me, especially
during those, uh, those young years.

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I can remember I had a learning
support teacher who told me that I

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would not be able to go to college.

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And I knew that I wanted to go to college,
that was something I wanted to do.

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But I wasn't naive with the fact
that it was going to be a challenge

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for me with having that, but she
didn't think I could handle that.

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And she suggested that
I attend a trade school.

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And when I look back on some of the
programs, not only did they, A, not

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interest me, but some of that stuff would
be harder with having my disability.

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I mean, I don't think anyone would want
me to cut or style somebody's hair.

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I'm not able to drive, so I
couldn't do the protective

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services that she suggested, and I
really didn't feel called to, uh,

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be a health assistant or work in culinary.

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Uh, most of those things would've been
really difficult with having that.

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So I decided that I'm going
to, uh, head on to college.

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And right before, I, uh, I found a
program at community college that

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was an early childhood program.

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And I got, I had to get tested for
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again to receive the accommodations I
was going to need and support services.

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And I've never been a great test
taker all throughout my years of

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school, it's just not my forte either.

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And the psychiatrist who evaluated
me said, Well, with your scores,

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you're most likely not gonna
go beyond community college.

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I get to community college
and there's even more stigma.

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If I, uh, disability accommodations
were considered cheating.

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And I can remember asking for even
a calculator and people would say,

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Well, oh no, we use our brains,
not calculators in this class.

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And people thought I was getting the
answers if I had a test read aloud to me.

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And I also had a professor who
told me that I was going to have

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really limited job choices someday.

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She found out I wasn't great at math
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art project, you're not gonna know how
much paper to give out to the students.

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And, well, that may be true,
that's something I struggle with.

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I've found strategies to be able
to help myself when I do that.

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And I also met people that said,
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be able to, uh, get married.

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People,

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someone might not want you
because you have a disability.

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And that was true, there were a
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they didn't wanna have someone,
uh, a partner that was disabled.

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And, and I can remember my ex breaking up
with me saying that, I'm, um, I, I know

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that you could drive if you really wanted
to, and I'm tired of taking you places.

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But despite all of those things,
I was able to go to college.

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I was able to get my bachelor's degree.

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I had to be really careful about, uh,
the, the classes that I took, that

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they didn't involve a lot of math,
didn't involve a lot of science,

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and that I used the accommodations.

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And I did end up meeting a great guy.

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I met my husband unexpectedly, and he's
wonderful with a lot of having that,

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with having the disability and, uh,
giving me rides to where I need to go.

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And I, I have found the job that I
love, working with kids in a school.

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But that also was something that didn't
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even after I graduated from university.

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It, it took me a while to find that
job that was disability friendly 'cause

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a lot of places claimed that they
were and they were anything but that.

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You know, that's very interesting.

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How, how prevalent do you think this
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are kind of shrugged off, if you will?

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I think a lot of that, um, is the
people have a lot of misconceptions on

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learning, what learning disabilities are.

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Uh, what one of the misconceptions
a lot of people don't understand is

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they think, oh, that must be, you
must have some kind of rare disorder.

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And that's, um, not true.

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It's one in five people
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And a lot of times though, how a
lot of education places are going is

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they don't have some of the learning
support classes I did as a kid.

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It's, we put them in a basic class
and we tell them, well, you can

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do anything you put your mind to.

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And for some of our kids, while that's
great, we want our kids to be hard

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workers, we want our children to go out
and reach for the, you know, reach for

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the stars in everything that they do.

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But for some of those people like me, I
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I can't get math or I can't drive a car.

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So it's so hard I think sometimes when
we try to put people into a box and we

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start telling them, oh, it's in your head,
you can do anything that you wanna do.

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And, and there's just gonna be
some things that may not happen

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the way that you expect it.

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Yeah, I agree with that a lot.

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as a person that became disabled after an
able-bodied life, it, it, it really is a

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shocker when you have to step into this
world and the treatment that you receive,

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and it's really a struggle in itself.

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So, you know, there's, there's
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people where they are in life.

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And I think our system really
obliterates a lot of the things that

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true disabled people might actually
need to help them achieve, and it's

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like they don't wanna take the time
to handle the struggle, if you will.

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What's your experience with that?

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I definitely think that a lot of
times people don't know what to do.

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I, I know when kids are in school, we
always wanna get them on grade level.

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We always want to get them
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And for some of our kids that
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the package that they expect.

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They, their best may not be
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staff has and it may not be the
expectations the parents have.

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But sometimes, uh, a kid really
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not working out because we have a
system that doesn't work for them.

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And when people are adults when they
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something that they live with, such
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acquired that happened with you, I, I
found that the system is not customized

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to what the, the person really needs.

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It's like they want this
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For example, I can remember
right after community college,

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I wanted to, uh, find a job.

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And I can remember we found an agency
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uh, to be able to get jobs.

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And that's what the, the
place was like, um, in theory.

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But in reality I found it, they
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support needs that had intellectual
disabilities, not learning disabilities.

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And I was already working temp jobs
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when I had an appointment that was
taking me away from working that day

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and I would sit there with one of the,
the counselors and, uh, one of them

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had me circle jobs in the newspaper.

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And I thought, I, I can do this at home.

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And I can remember they were,
they would ask, I would tell 'em,

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Oh, I have a job interview for
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And they said, Oh, do you
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And I'm thinking, No.

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I'm Capable of going to the
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And I wondered what was going on, uh,
why was I given all these menial tasks?

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And then they had an event where everybody
gathered for like a career day, and I

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saw a lot of the other people that they
served and mostly a lot of them worked

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retail jobs and some of them had Down
syndrome and they had other disabilities.

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And it, it dawned on me that this is
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that programming that was supporting
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things that are definitely needed,
but it didn't really meet my needs.

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And even my mom said, You're,
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on your own with finding jobs.

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And I just think that sometimes
that's a lot of the issues I find,

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um, a lot of times we have this box
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a disability in as an employee.

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We think, Okay.

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Maybe you can stock shelves, maybe
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maybe those are the jobs that, that
a person with a disability can do.

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And for some people that might be
what they, uh, are able to do or it's

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something that they, they wanna do.

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But for other people, I think that
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about trying to find those positions
and breaking a lot of the barriers

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that society likes to put on people.

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Yeah, I agree with that a lot.

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And in, in a program like that, they
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aspiration of the client because
it's, it's about the client.

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And the funds are set
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So I, I myself have went through these
work incentive networks and whatnot.

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I've been told, I don't have time for
this, and I've been told, you know, We, we

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don't really ever get people where they're
a hundred percent, uh, employable anymore.

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And these statements to the client is
devastating and it sets us back so far,

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just, and, and it's like they don't give
the thought who they're speaking with.

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And it's like they're in a, in a
lunchroom with everybody else that,

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you know, just has the ability to
go all out in their employment.

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Not everyone's like that and
so I understand, uh, a lot

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that you've been through.

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How does it feel to know that you do have
that spot in society that you enjoy doing?

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I am very grateful for
the job that I do have.

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I have been with my current employer
for fifteen years, and I am, I

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am just very grateful for that.

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And I also understand though, too,
that I do have that privilege that

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I can walk into a job interview and
people don't know I have a disability.

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But the trick with that is I have the
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I'm not, but it's a double-edged sword.

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I can get at the job and people don't
understand, well, why can't you do math?

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And that's really hard to tell
people that because people look at

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me and they, they presume confidence.

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And I have to advocate for
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that sometimes is really hard.

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And sometimes I might be in a
situation where, in, in a classroom,

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where they might want me to help
with math and I can't do it.

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So I have to just politely advocate
for myself saying, I can't do that.

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Or even with the kids and say, I'm really
sorry, I can't help you with the math.

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And it's hard.

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It, it's masking a lot of those
feelings sometimes, but I, I know

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that I can get through it and
it's just one of those things.

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Sometimes we have to do that and
that, that, that can be difficult.

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But there's also, then I have to remember
to myself, we have, uh, uh, not everybody

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with a disability is, has a job.

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We have such a high rate of
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a disability, I've been able to
overcome that, that, those numbers.

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I overcame the odds of going to
college, there's only ten percent of

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disability, people with disabilities
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So in a lot of ways that is definitely
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um, I'm humbled and I, I find a
purpose though with, when I, with

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the students I work with, because
a lot of them have disabilities.

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So I think sometimes coming out and
saying that maybe there's some things

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that I struggle with, that, that shows
them it's okay to struggle with things.

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It's okay not to know all the
answers, but we're gonna work with

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this to be able to figure that out.

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I think that that's an inclusive and
inviting world that you offer when you do

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that, and that's, that's really what we
need most of all right now in our society.

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So there's all sorts of struggles
out there, and if we recognize

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we're all in this ship together
and we all face something.

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You know, even though we don't wanna admit
it, we're all disabled with something.

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And I've recognized that through
podcasting and speaking with people and

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presenting myself, with my authentic self
and expressing myself without the hurt

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and the shame involved in that expression.

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It took me a long time to be able to
do that because of the frustration

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I felt with this disability.

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So do you ever struggle with
these frustrations and how

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does that make you feel?

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Definitely.

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I have definitely struggled a lot with
the frustrations, with people telling

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me that I, I couldn't do something.

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And I also struggled on that other camp
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able to do anything and it's in my head.

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So I think that can be a struggle.

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Uh, sometimes it, it's, just maybe a
struggle, like I, I'm also diagnosed

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with limited hand dexterity, so
sometimes maybe opening up, um, jars

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might be a struggle or opening up doors.

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Those things can really be hard for me
to do sometimes, and it, it can be easy

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to sit there and think to yourself,
Okay, why am I in this situation?

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But sometimes what I look at is I
always get an answer though if I ask.

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I can remember I was in a classroom and
there was, uh, they were asking me to

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help out with math and I couldn't do it.

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And I just remember looking to the
heavens and wondering why am I here?

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Uh, you know, this is
what I'm struggling with.

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And somebody told me that a child was
crying and I went over and I had that

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chance to be able to get on eye level
with him, and I said, I know how hard

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it is with math and I can't help you
with it, but I, I'm able, I want you

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to tell me when you're struggling so we
can get you the resources that you need.

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And that was something.

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And that child, before I knew
it, he was raising his hand.

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He didn't, uh, he wasn't
afraid to ask for help.

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And I think that, that I can see
the purpose, I can see the why.

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And I think sometimes when we can
see our why and we know what our, the

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purpose behind it is, then that gives
us that hope, that gives us that reason

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that we wanna go on to be able to help.

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And I think that's one of the, um,
another thing that really helps me

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is I get that chance to have a blog
where I can write about how I'm feeling

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and writing has given me that voice.

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And photography is another
way that I've really turned a

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lot of that pain into purpose.

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I, I can't drive because of my
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ride, I get the chance, I have to walk.

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And on my walks I get to see all these
beautiful flowers and I have to think to

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myself, I can notice details that other
people will miss because I'm not driving.

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And people say I bring out the
details of a flower and I get that

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chance to stop and smell the roses.

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And I, and I just think, if I was
driving a car, what are, all the details

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that I would miss and all that beauty
that I get to capture in my life.

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Well, yeah, there's, there's a lot to it.

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And you save a lot also from not
driving and you help the environment

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there, there's a lot to that.

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So, so Michelle, you have a website,
Michelle's Mission, What is your mission?

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My mission is to encourage,
empower, and educate people

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with and without disabilities.

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I have, I write a lot about my life
with having a disability, and I love

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to be able to compare that to nature
because that's a big part of my life.

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And I might talk about the process
of a flower that's, um, blooming and

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that's the process of me accepting my
disability, or the transformation of

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a butterfly, that's another thing that
I, I have a passion for, and all those

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different stages that a butterfly has
gone through and the, and I have as well.

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And I also, my, I wanna be able
to educate people with and without

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that, so I try to make information
that is easy to understand.

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But doesn't talk down to people, so
somebody with a disability can read

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it and think, oh, that's my story.

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Or I know someone like that, or, I,
that's how I think or, that's how I feel.

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And I, I thought I was the only one.

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And I also like it, to educate maybe
somebody that doesn't have that

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so a parent can maybe understand
what their child's going through.

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It can also be something, maybe
a loved one can also understand

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that with somebody or a teacher.

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I just wanna be able to, and I,
and I encourage people too, I wanna

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encourage people with and without
disabilities to follow their dreams

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and to empower them because we all have
things that we're, we struggle with.

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But we also have things
that we are good at as well.

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Yes, that's, that's so true.

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We all have a gift and sometimes
it is so hard to find, Michelle.

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So if, if you were in front of a
struggling child that didn't know how

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to reach out for help, what advice would
you give that child seeking advice?

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A lot of times what I have to do
with my students is, I will tell them

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if they don't know something, you
need to ask your teacher for help.

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And sometimes they're afraid,
they're like, I don't wanna go

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up there, uh, and ask for help.

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I had a, a student that was absent
today, uh, she was absent for a few

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days and she could not do the work
that was in front of her with, with

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the assignment, with the information.

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So I said, You really need
to go up and ask for help.

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And, uh, this time she didn't go up
and ask, but I went up and I told the

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teacher and he came over and helped her.

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But a lot of times I will go up
to my, my students, when they

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come up to me, I'll say, you need
to go ask your teacher for help.

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And I'll go with them, but I
want them to use their words.

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Eventually they gotta use their
words to say, I don't understand.

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I need help, can you please help me?

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And once we, we show them how
to do that, it's, it's just

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such a game changer for them.

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They, they know that
they can ask for support.

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And I just think with my students,
um, someday they're gonna leave

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me, for so many of them, their
disability is going to stay and

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they need to know how to manage it.

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And they need to know how to ask for
support and to advocate for themselves.

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Yeah, that's right.

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You know, the, life is
a cornucopia of events.

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You, you just don't know what's
in your basket until you live it,

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so the struggle is always real.

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How, how did you feel when you were
in college and you had to get up

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in front of people because you had
to give, you know, your talks and

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present, how did that make you feel?

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I have always been great with getting
up in front of people and speaking.

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I, yeah, speech class was easy for me.

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I think a lot of that credit was, uh, when
I was growing up being part of the church.

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Uh, we, our class, would have to,
sometimes I would do some scripture

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readings so I got, I got used to
getting up in front of people.

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I, I do great with, with doing
that, I always felt comfortable.

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I can remember when I first
took a speech class, uh, some

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people warned me, oh, he's, this
professor's a really hard grader.

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And then I got an A, I mean,
on my speech, and it just, the,

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the percentage just went up.

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So I never had a really a problem
with getting up and speaking

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and presenting that, that was
really never an issue for me.

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And I was even in a couple plays,
uh, and I, I love doing that.

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My real issue that, that happens
is anything, if you give me a

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math problem, I can't do it.

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Science is not my subject either.

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And it's really difficult for me if you
put a test in front of me in classes, that

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was probably one of the hardest things.

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I can remember, people
would say, well, why?

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This class is easy.

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All you have to do is a midterm,
a final, and a couple quizzes, and

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maybe a paper or two, blah, blah.

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You don't have to do any work.

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And I'm thinking it's more work for me
to do that than it is to write a paper,

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uh, do a presentation, or a project.

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So, so communication is really
a strong point in your life.

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Do you think that helped you through
your disability, uh, pitfalls, uh,

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because of your communication skill?

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I think that has helped
me a lot, uh, in that way.

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I didn't start out like that though.

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In high school I did not wanna
talk about having a disability,

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I just wanted to run from it.

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But it's whenever I had that encouragement
where people were telling me, you should

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write about having a learning disability,
you should go and speak on having one.

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And I honestly think to myself,
once I got that, I got that

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courage up to just do that.

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That's when a lot of that healing
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ashamed of having the disability,
and I was all right with that.

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I came to that acceptance, that
and getting my bachelor's degree.

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But definitely the communication
helped because if I don't speak up

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for myself, nobody knows what I need.

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Nobody, uh, can read my mind, um,
and, and be able to know that.

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So it's really important for me to
have those communication skills.

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And it was hard to advocate at first.

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I can remember my parents did a lot
of that for me when I was younger.

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And my mom, I remember there was a
phone call where she was explaining

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to somebody that I had a disability
and they were fine with it.

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And I thought, Oh, I really
wish I could do that.

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Well, when I became an adult and I moved
out on my own, that's my job to do that.

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And I was not always great at advocacy,
I started out and I, I made a lot of

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mistakes with that and it took me a
while to really learn how to be an

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effective self-advocate for myself.

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Yeah.

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I, I think it's very important to
get that self-worth, that value.

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You know, we, we all
have something to give.

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And if we find that, we
find our value in society.

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So it's, it's a really good thing
to speak up for yourself and when,

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when possible, speak up for others.

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Because I think that's very important, uh,
because that will help build and encourage

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other people if they see that they have
that advocate stepping up for them.

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Right.

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Yeah, exactly.

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I think that that's something I
model, I try to model with my students

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too, because they're learning.

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I may not be teaching them how to do
a math problem but they're learning

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how to speak up for themselves.

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They're learning that sometimes you
got to say, I can't do something.

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They're learning how to
express those limits.

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And so many of my, I was really lucky to
have parents who, uh, just really educated

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me on having a disability as well.

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And I talked to so many kids, uh, I
work with seventh graders who don't

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know what an IEP is, they don't
know about their own disability.

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And I just think that sometimes
there has to be that education where

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kids know, this is the disability I
have, this is how it impacts my life.

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I don't wanna let it stop me from being
a success, but I have to also understand

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that these are the things that I'm
going to, um, struggle with and I'm

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gonna have to deal with in my life.

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Yeah, that's huge.

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You know, recognizing our pitfalls.

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We, we can progress a lot easier.

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So, Michelle, uh, what do you
have in store for yourself

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during the rest of your life?

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What, are you just wanting to be
a paraeducator the rest of your

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life, or do you have aspirations
to be an entrepreneurial spirit

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and become something for yourself?

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I would like to do both.

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I would still love to work in
the school, um, but I would

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also love to increase my blog.

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That's definitely something.

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I would definitely love to sell more
photography and hopefully to write a

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book about my life experience someday,
and to, to just be able to find a way

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to be, also just to keep on helping
other people and doing what I'm doing.

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Yeah, that, that's so cool.

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So do you have anything else you would
like to add to our conversation today?

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I would just like to say that, uh,
Success doesn't always come in the

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package that we expect, but sometimes
it comes in something even better.

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I like that a lot.

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You know, that's, that's
words of wisdom right there.

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And sometimes that takes patience and
if, if we're patient, it, it happens.

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Just, just give yourself time.

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Michelle, I have enjoyed our
discussion today and I wanna say

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thank you for joining us here today.

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Could you tell people how to
reach out, get involved with you

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and how they can work with you?

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Sure.

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You can find me and my blog,
www.michellesmission.com, and

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you can also find me on Facebook,
uh, and Instagram as well.

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All right.

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Thank you for being here,
Michelle, and it, it's been

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a pleasure speaking with you.

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Thank you so much.

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They drew their lines and made their
call, said I'd be the one to fall.

448
00:30:14,925 --> 00:30:22,665
But something burning in my chest,
whispered failures not my rest.

449
00:30:23,025 --> 00:30:30,400
Every doubt became my fuel,
every, no, became my school.

450
00:30:30,879 --> 00:30:40,219
I'm standing where they said I'd never
be, living out what they couldn't see.

451
00:30:41,929 --> 00:30:48,020
They said I couldn't, but I did,
broke through the ceiling, opened it.

452
00:30:48,469 --> 00:30:53,840
Invisible battles, visible
wins, this is where my story

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00:30:55,899 --> 00:30:56,929
begins.

454
00:30:56,929 --> 00:30:59,070
I let my truth to light the fear,

455
00:31:03,649 --> 00:31:05,480
teaching kids

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00:31:08,649 --> 00:31:09,010
to fight,

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00:31:11,669 --> 00:31:18,520
to persevere.

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00:31:21,860 --> 00:31:33,720
Watch me turn the page and prove,
impossible is just a word to move.

459
00:31:33,960 --> 00:31:38,580
In every child I see the spark,
of someone leading in the dark.

460
00:31:38,580 --> 00:31:44,700
Their potential has no end, I'm
not just teacher, I'm best friend.

461
00:31:44,700 --> 00:31:58,220
Showing them their strengths
within, this is how we rise and win.

462
00:31:58,380 --> 00:32:02,720
We're standing where they said we'd never
be, living out what they couldn't see.

463
00:32:02,720 --> 00:32:03,722
They said I couldn't, but I did,
broke through the ceiling, opened it.

464
00:32:03,722 --> 00:32:05,980
Invisible battles, visible wins,
this is where my story begins.

465
00:32:05,980 --> 00:32:11,580
I let my truth to light the fear,

466
00:32:16,680 --> 00:32:27,130
teaching kids to fight, to persevere.

467
00:32:27,200 --> 00:32:29,230
Watch me turn

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00:32:31,400 --> 00:32:32,220
the

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page and prove,

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00:32:44,150 --> 00:32:48,950
impossible is just a word to move.

471
00:32:48,950 --> 00:32:51,990
I can fight, I can voice, you were
made for more, it's your choice.

472
00:32:51,990 --> 00:32:52,654
I can fight, I can voice, make
the world stop, make some noise.

473
00:32:52,654 --> 00:32:55,229
They said I couldn't, but I did,
broke through the ceiling, opened it.

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00:32:56,619 --> 00:32:57,979
Invisible

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00:33:28,109 --> 00:33:38,979
battles, visible wins, this
is where my story begins.

476
00:33:39,009 --> 00:33:44,329
I let my truth to light the fear,
teaching kids to fight, to persevere.

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00:33:44,329 --> 00:33:45,509
Watch me turn the page and
prove, impossible is just a

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00:33:45,509 --> 00:33:46,721
word, impossible is just a word,
impossible is just a word to move.

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00:33:46,721 --> 00:33:46,832
Just a word to move.

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Just a word to move.